day 1 : khushi

 So, I woke up today at around 10, and then I felt sleepy the whole day. When I woke up, I got to know that mom and the sisters were going out to do some bank work, and I was happy cause I had the house to myself. But they came back in just a jiffy, and I was not alone anymore. After that mom went to see the new house they are buying and did not take me, for a while I was upset. And in addition to that, there was no milk for me to make the morning tea, So I started overeating and broke my diet.

Yeah, I am on diet. So, I have a theory that I don’t need three meals in a day as I don’t do much work so I am trying a plan where I only have one meal. It is working out great I feel more confident about myself, and I go running once in a while too. It’s not like torture to my body or anything I really can live on one meal in a day, and I do the second if I feel hungry or there is anything special to eat. That actually helps to build up my appetite.

well after eating I started Instagram shorts and yt reels and waited for 4 pm and then watched modern family. I am only 3 episodes away from ending season one. And I found out about ariel winter and how damn cute she looks, she actually is in the modern family so I get to simp on her, I got a detailed study on her weight loss journey and her breast reduction for no reason.

And now I am thinking of going for a walk to get some fresh air, but damn I stink. I should have taken a shower.

Nope, I am not going just went in the hall had a little chat, and came back to my room. Just watch the show or play games till I fall asleep. Btw yesterday I slept at 2, and now my neck was hurting all day due to bad posture. A reminder not to do that again.

The college is starting on the day after tomorrow which means I only have one day to study all the I was going to on vacation but did not, and also, I have to sleep early tomorrow, because of morning college.

Fuck it, I am going down just bored in this room and I am not able to think anything creative inside.

I am out now, it is 20:30 I will be back by 21:30 or 22:00. One of the reasons I was able to leave the house was because I have the internet on my phone, lol.

So, I came back at 21:40. This walk was quite productive for me. I did a brainstorming session on my new project (book)“Khushi”, I recorded voice notes of it too just to reference later. And while I was checking my phone before coming back home, I saw a status that had a scene of SSR from PK movie. In which he recites his poetry and says “thoda bahot hum bhi likh lete hai”. And that made me think, “thoda bahot toh hum bhi likh hi lete hai, thoda bahot kaafi zyada likh lete hai” and I created my first poem of 2022. I titled it KHUSHI totally unrelated to the book which I talked about earlier. And I posted it on Instagram. And now let’s just end this day, I have to do a lot of things tomorrow.

खुशी (1 January 22)

“गम की परछाईया पीछे छोड़ दी, अब खूबसूरत नया सफर चुन रहा हूँ ।
 इन अंधेरी राहों में भी, ज़िन्दगी की खुशी सुन रहा हूँ।
 हासिल करना मकाम मुझे है मुश्किल काफी, इसलिए जीने का नया ज़रिया बून रहा हूँ ।“

Good night